Monday, 16 March 2015


Everyone falls in love, everyday of every week we fall in love.

We fall in love with people, food, clothes and the world. We can fall in love with life.

Love is a wonderful thing and without it in the world I don't believe we would find happiness.

But what happens when that love hurts you every single day of your life, every morning when you wake up? Is it still beautiful?  

  I like to think so. 

Love that hurts helps you to grow, it helps you to realise your boundaries and also how strong you are as a person. When love hurts you it helps you to gain perspective in your life and to make time for yourself and eventually after time, after the healing process - you feel free of the pain.

Do you know the exact moment in which you are free? Did you notice a change in yourself? Did you physically feel a weight lift from your body?

For the past 18 months I have felt trapped, restrained, hurt and suffocated by a love that I couldn't break away from. I couldn't even mention the name of this person without a gut wrenching feeling that I would never feel that way again. 

The moment you realise you are no longer in love with someone or something that will never work is the exact moment you want to shout from the rooftops and tell the world. 

I know the exact moment that this happened for me. 

Recently the magic happened, I feel free, released from a grip I never thought I could break away from. And it came after a full night of crying my heart out in to my pillow. After seeing him out for the first time in over a year, I didn't know how else to react - crying was the only thing my body would allow me to do. 

The tears, the pain, the heartache all of it came back to me and felt like it was taking over me. Physically as well as mentally I felt exhausted, but actually this was a good thing. I woke up feeling more free than ever. I woke up and knew for the final time that I was over it. 

I could speak about him without being angry, I could imagine him with another person and feel happy for him and I could finally get on with my life without worrying about feeling hurt. 

When you finally move forward with life, you don't just forget. And I don't want to forget. I want to live with the things that I have learned and use them everyday in my life. 

Moving on and 'getting over' something or someone means that you no longer feel bitter or angry. You feel content and free. 

Fall in love with yourself. Fall in love with the world. Fall in love with life. 

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